DECIDING ON A NEW ADVENTURE
Making the decision to leave my home, and everything i know was not an easy decision. Needing a change felt like its what I needed. So together with my husband, we decided to try this adventure together. Stressful yes it was resign, was the one thing i was counting down too. Never have i been so ready to hand in my resignation, nor was i expecting the wave of emotions that came with it. Relief, was the biggest one, the next emotion was brief, sadness. Seeing my colleagues shocked expression at the unexpected news, and that some of my colleagues I was going to miss.
The first challenging part was over, however the next one was around the corner. Breaking the news to my family. At first, naively thinking it would be hard, you know then it would be fine. Like i said i was being naive. Actually telling them was hard and uncomfortable, but also they were in shock that the real emotions didn't come through. As time went, and my resignation month flew past, and i was now a jobless woman, having to sell everything we have, then the real emotions and disbelieve started surfacing.
Family were not happy about our decision, thinking that i was forced into it, maybe that's what they thought and i let them think that, so that it would be easier for me. I know its wrong, but if they really knew me, they would know better right? My mother being old didn't take the news well, and guilt tripping every chance she got, just made me want to get out of there as fast as possible. Dealing with emotional blackmail of sorts, can be a good motivator.
When the time arrived, again a bag of mixed emotions, excitement, fear, hope, happiness, and sadness were the rollercoaster of emotions for that last week.